My wife lost her brother 5 years ago today, his birthday would've been yesterday. He had a work related illness that killed him slowly, causing much pain & suffering. I see that time heals the wounds, but there are events and days that the reflection seems as painful for her as when he passed. My thoughts go out to you Westy & wish that in some way, life will repay you for your kindness & compassion & for those whiter lies. One foot in front of another, enjoy each breath, don't be afraid of unloading on your fellow man or a professional. Take care.