All I can say is I've feel the same way, down to the stressors and trying to psych myself out of being so passionate about the Bills at times (after the Cowboys MNF loss years ago, I wanted so bad to hate this team but couldn't).
So no, you're not alone. Just try not to get worked up if we lose. I know it's easier said than done, but at the end of the day, it's just football. The Bills have historically had some really s*** luck, and if it happens again, just chalk it up to being a Bills fan. It almost seems like it wouldn't be the Bills if they became a front-runner, SB winning team all of a sudden 🤣