I've been in a tailspin since I lost my wife three years ago. I've pushed everyone away because it's easier being alone. Though I hate being alone. I'm no doctor but I think I might be suffering from PTSD from watching my wife slip away from me slowly. I can't seem to handle stress anymore. All the things I used to care about before my wife got sick doesn't mean anything to me anymore. I'm just a shell of the man I used to be. I'm not looking for sympathy. I just felt like telling someone.