The Red King

Did you even read the thread? The win/loss record has nothing to do with it. Stop reading thread titles and knee-jerk posting to them.

Thank you for the replies. Think I'm gonna try taking a step back. Not gonna watch the Jets game. Will check the score on my phone from time to time. Honestly, I already do that for the KC Royals (born in Buffalo, raised in Omaha) and the Sabres, and it seems to work well enough. Gonna have to trade in my die-hard fan card, but this might well be better for me. Thanks again!

I remember when the time between when I woke up and kickoff was torture. OMG is it 1 yet? I'll watch the pregame show, but hrrrgh! The thought of even missing the opening kickoff was blasphemy. If I had to miss a game, if possible I'd be checking my phone for updates. I was excited, regardless of how good or bad the Bills or their opponents were. This season is different. Today, it was, "Oh, wait. It's 12:55? Guess I better put the game on."

My condolences. Maybe that's part of it for me. My daughter was a fan for a couple years, but no longer. I'm watching these alone now.

That's exactly it. The losses don't bother me any more then they used to, even during the drought. Just, the wins don't feel as good as they did, resulting in a much lower baseline.

It's not more attention, just how I've felt. This isn't about how football itself is, or how others should feel. This is just a question of, if I feel this way, should I keep watching. And a question of if others may feel the same.

Actually made my point for me, thank you. Already said the highs just aren't as high for me anymore.

The KC win felt amazing. The Titans loss was crushing. As far as emotional high/lows, they equaled out. At this point the Steelers and Jags losses caused more torment then all the other wins caused euphoria. As I said, this is not just a one-game thing.

Not reactionary. Reread my posts please.

To be clear, since tone is not clear on the internet, my OP, and my responses, are not said in anger. This is not "!@#$ these !#$%@ pieces of !@#$%!!! Why the !@#$ do I even watch?!?". No, this is quiet reflection, and an honest question for something I've felt all season actually, just brought into focus again today.

As I said, wasn't just this game. Felt the same before this one started. This isn't just a reaction to one game. The lows feel just as low to me, the highs not as high. I know what the '90s felt like. I know what the drought felt like. Today was not the start of feeling it. It simply brought the question up in my head again.

Yeah, call it a potential overreaction to today, but even before the game started, watching felt like a chore, not a boon. Football meant everything to me. It was quality time with my dad, who taught me all about it. One of my best memories of my dad was being together at the stadium for The Comeback. It was in my blood. But now it seems the wins feel good, but the losses feel so much worse. I'm watching the games on my own now, my kids aren't into football. My stress levels are through the roof on close games. Today was miserable. A loss, bad coaching, bad playing, abyssmal officiating (for the first time I am seriously wondering if the NFL is fixed/scripted). And it's not over. This loss is going to stay with me and haunt me. I'm wondering if it's worth it anymore. If the good feelings are worth the bad feelings and time commited. Yes, a Super Bowl win would be euphoric. But the odds are against that. Would anything else, even a season ending in a Super Bowl loss, be worth the time and torment invested? It's like buying an expensive emotional lottery ticket. I'm...kinda starting to think not, that this just isn't worth it. Anyone else feel the same, or at least understand?

These refs...my god... O.O

Taunting...when you failed on a stop? WTF is with these refs?

The O-Line is the Red Carpet. >.>

I...I...have never seen anything like those last three plays. O.o

The refball is strong today.

WTF play calling is that? Running out the clock?

Can the ref fix be any more obvious? Good god.

#1 draft pick goes down and out. Wonder if the refball will suddenly ease off as a result.

WTF refs? I just...this is really, really bad. Fix is in? Keep it close early?

Hughes finally got a hold call? What madness is this?

If they manage to pee in the cup, they pass?

More refball to keep it close?

Should Bease be pulled? He's looking hurt and dropping right away.