It's sad to see someone humiliate themselves in this way. There's help out there:
http://suicidehotlines.com/newyork.html
http://www.spsfv.org/hotlines.htm
http://www.psychologyinfo.com/depression/help.html
You don't need to broadcast your personal problems over a public message board, apuszczalowski, there are many ways that you can work out your issues without attention seeking on an internet message board. You'll likely find that this behavior is actually another symptom of depression. We're here for you, but we can only do much.