My baby (dog) is dying

[TBBills Fan]

She's 13 and been having issues.  She had surgery last month. And since the surgery it's like her body is just breaking down

 

I've been giving her steak and chicken every day to get her eat.  She's lost so much weight I see her ribs and spine

 

I don't want her to be in pain anymore but she is my best friend. She has always been there for me. 

 

She's not eating, not pooping and now not really moving and having difficulty standing. 

 

I keep telling her how happy she makes me and how much I love her as I lay with her. 

 

I'm gonna have take her to put her down. I don't want to. 

 

I can't stop crying.  This hurts so much. I don't want to lose her but I don't want her in pain. 

 

10 years ago she saved my life. I'm not supposed to have her so I can't share this with anyone or reach out to family 

Edited 1 hour ago by TBBills Fan

[Mike in Horseheads]

6 minutes ago, TBBills Fan said:

She's 13 and been having issues.  She had surgery last month. And since the surgery it's like her body is just breaking down

 

I've been giving her steak and chicken every day to get her eat.  She's lost so much weight I see her ribs and spine

 

I don't want her to be in pain anymore but she is my best friend. She has always been there for me. 

 

She's not eating, not pooping and now not really moving and having difficulty standing. 

 

I keep telling her how happy she makes me and how much I love her as I lay with her. 

 

I'm gonna have take her to put her down. I don't want to. 

 

I can't stop crying.  This hurts so much. I don't want to lose her but I don't want her in pain. 

 

10 years ago she saved my life. I'm not supposed to have her so I can't share this with anyone or reach out to family 

As my father said to me when my dog 15 years old got sick, "Mike when are you going to do some thing about that dog ??"  Having him say that to me I knew it was time as he loved that dog

Edited 1 hour ago by Mike in Horseheads

[Augie]

You know when it’s time, and sometimes love means doing the hardest thing. 

[TBBills Fan]

10 minutes ago, Augie said:

You know when it’s time, and sometimes love means doing the hardest thing. 

Yeah I do. We've been there for each other, and I'm not gonna let her be in pain it's just heart breaking and I wish I could wave a wand and make her better

[Augie]

1 minute ago, TBBills Fan said:

Yeah I do. We've been there for each other, and I'm not gonna let her be in pain it's just heart breaking and I wish I could wave a wand and make her better

 

Oh, I know. Believe me, I know. 

[TBBills Fan]

Thank you @Mike in Horseheads and @Augie i appreciate you guys sharing. Im a bit of a wreck right now and I don't know just  thank you 

[Draconator]

Last December, me and my wife put down my wife's soul cat. Bella was 17 at the time she was put down. When Bella accepted you, she fully accepted you. She would come up to me while I was sleeping, and if she wanted attention, she would gently touch my lips with her paw. She did the same to my wife. She just loved unconditionally. My wife got her as a kitten, and she was there though my wife's divorce, new relationship with me, my wife's cancer journey. and everything. 

 

When we were in the room to have her put down, my wife flat out asked the vet "Have we done everything we can to to keep her alive"? The vet reassured her we have done everything, and it was time to let her go. My wife held her in her arms as she was put to sleep. It's been almost a year, and a picture of Bella is my wife's screen saver. 

 

It is just not easy, but you have the good memories and the good time with your dog. You just have to do the right thing. It's ok to cry endless rivers of tears. 

[TBBills Fan]

She has always been there through everything. Nothing but joy and love. I'm gonna miss her so much. I don't want her to go. This ***** hurts. 

 

I will do what's right by her I wish I could do more. 

 

She saved me but I can't save her. I have failed her

[muppy]

2 minutes ago, TBBills Fan said:

She has always been there through everything. Nothing but joy and love. I'm gonna miss her so much. I don't want her to go. This ***** hurts. 

 

I will do what's right by her I wish I could do more. 

 

She saved me but I can't save her. I have failed her

stop this right now. You obviously love your dog  very much. and the dog loved you as much of not more. I had a dog once who had cancer and dwindled  in  weight at the end. But her tag still wagged. My vet told me it wasn't that she felt well but she loved me so much. But her quality of life was at a 2 out of 10.

 

That was my tipping point. You cant watch your beloved pet suffer any more.  Let her cross the rainbow bridge. And when you are ready save another dog from the shelter who would love  to be loved by someone as caring as you

 

Im so sorry but we all have been there and know how much it hurts

[TBBills Fan]

3 minutes ago, Draconator said:

Last December, me and my wife put down my wife's soul cat. Bella was 17 at the time she was put down. When Bella accepted you, she fully accepted you. She would come up to me while I was sleeping, and if she wanted attention, she would gently touch my lips with her paw. She did the same to my wife. She just loved unconditionally. My wife got her as a kitten, and she was there though my wife's divorce, new relationship with me, my wife's cancer journey. and everything. 

 

When we were in the room to have her put down, my wife flat out asked the vet "Have we done everything we can to to keep her alive"? The vet reassured her we have done everything, and it was time to let her go. My wife held her in her arms as she was put to sleep. It's been almost a year, and a picture of Bella is my wife's screen saver. 

 

It is just not easy, but you have the good memories and the good time with your dog. You just have to do the right thing. It's ok to cry endless rivers of tears. 

I know what they are gonna tell me when I take her.  The part that's really killing me is if there is something they can do, I won't be able to afford it. 

 

I'm pay check to paycheck and had to take out a predatory loan at 270% interest last month to save her that I'm paying $75 a week on for 71 months on a $1500 loan 

 

something is blocking her from pooping, they told me she probably has cancer last month because of the cyst on her belly and after the surgery two new lumps developed on her neck.  So I don't know if the cancer spread because the surgery was tough on her and that has caused whatever the blockage is or if this is something else.  

 

It started as eating a bit less, then pooping diareah, to not really pooping any more than tiny bits of diarrhea and not eating at all.  I got her soft fresh dog food, she ate that for a bit, but then stopped.  So I started with regular food, chicken breasts, steak and she would eat that.  Things like cheese which she loved she would turn her nose at. 

 

Now she is just not moving, not going to the bathroom and she is having a hard time keeping her balance.  Her breathing is very light. She is so skinny. Her belly is big but her body is showing her spine and ribs. She was always fit. A pit mix. 

 

I've been doing what I can, hoping she would recover but I feel like I've failed her and she deserves better from me.

 

I've failed her.   

 

I'm on the floor with her and just petting and holding her.  She gave me her pit smile 

 

She got worse and worse so quick and today is the day she didnt greet me after work, won't move and when I did her get to get up she could barely stand. 

 

I've failed her.  The one who was always there and gave unconditional love. 

 

I could tell about a week ago her time was coming. The not eating at all unless I fed her chicken and steak and only pooping tiny little diarrhea turds.

 

I feel like I've failed her.  I don't want her to go but I think my biggest fear is then telling me they can do some kind of surgery or put her down and I will have to put her down. That's why I haven't taken her yet

 

 

12 minutes ago, muppy said:

stop this right now. You obviously love your dog  very much. and the dog loved you as much of not more. I had a dog once who had cancer and dwindled  in  weight at the end. But her tag still wagged. My vet told me it wasn't that she felt well but she loved me so much. But her quality of life was at a 2 out of 10.

 

That was my tipping point. You cant watch your beloved pet suffer any more.  Let her cross the rainbow bridge. And when you are ready save another dog from the shelter who would love  to be loved by someone as caring as you

 

Im so sorry but we all have been there and know how much it hurts

Thank you.  No I do not.  If they can do something, but I can't, will just *****.  She gave me so much and I can't fix her.  I should have taken her two weeks ago