I passed over this thread many times and finally decided to read it this morning. Now I sit at my computer, when I should be getting to work with tears in my eyes. I didn't know you or your son, but have had enough loss in my life to know what you are going through. I've also seen enough people, friends & family battle addiction to partially understand what you & your son went through. Losing loved ones in my family at a young age I can tell you the pain or loss never fully goes away. Time may dull the pain, but you will always be reminded of it. But maybe thats the way its supposed to be, maybe thats how we keep their memories alive and with us. Take care, I hope you find peace with this sooner than later....
Jim